`Wenqi (:
; 19 years old
; 3rd July '91
; NP- BS Yr 3
; 19 years old
; 3rd July '91
; NP- BS Yr 3
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date: Friday, January 09, 2009 i m totally speechless about my play today
it is definately the worst match i played for ivp this year in the first quarter, we were still leading by 3 mag did nt want me to know the score cos she knew i would panic after which i still managed to see the score on the paper mag was right, knowing the score made me did worst for the subsequent quarter i lost my cool and i missed my shots like nobody's business my holding posture was not clear and i was blown contact for alot of times my teammates took great effort to bring the ball down and my stupid mistakes caused the other team to turn it over my moral dropped during the 2nd quarter when i started to brood about my mistakes cos almost every shot i took, i missed it i heard bh shouting '' wenqi, u got no time to think about ur mistakes!'' jiaolian told me in the 3rd quarter she wanted one shot from me i managed to do it. i cant expect ppl to keep forcing me to perform ''wenqi, i want this ball'' i need to pick myself up from every mistake i take & nt brooding over it it will not bring me anywhere at all! sharon and fanglin were so encouraging all the quarters & sharon told me something which i did not managed to do '' wenqi, i want to see u fire up!'' i forgot at which quarter, it is either the 1st or 2nd bh shouted ''wenqi, ''wenwen lai'' i believe u can do it'' it was super encouraging & it did helps but not for long overall; i feel i did her and the team down i still cant get over my phscology barrier i tried to, i really tried very hard but it only lasted me for a quarter what makes me more gulity is my teamates dun blame me for my mistakes in fact, the moment i got out from court and my face changed they all came over to me and hugged me they consoled and even tried to cheer me up they even brought food down to encourage me cos they know i was sad over the last match they even volunteered to be my punching bag they never failed to encourage me when they c my moral low on court but sadly, i did not perform to expectations bh asked me this qns '' u think u r lousier than the keeper meh?'' she told me the answer is definately no! while facing stronger teams like nus and rp i fear nothing and why meeting someone weaker wont make me scared the reason is simple; it is a barrier that i need to overcome myself no one can help me do so only me and only myself will be able to do so everytime i told myelf to forget about the last scene the angel and the devil side of me will appear and often the devil side of me will win no point crying over spilt milk, i need to pick myself up frankly speaking, i dunnoe how to hopefully, playing for extremes will be able to bring back my self confidence but i doubt i will be going for training tml i m really too drained this whole week what a way to start year 2009 ): thanks peeps for being there today jeremy,andrew,ball,cheryl.teo,karthi,panda monster,jiahao,alicia,mag,yvonne,ade,yun hua cheryl,jasmin,kahkay,cindy,shuting much loved! |
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