`Wenqi (:
; 19 years old
; 3rd July '91
; NP- BS Yr 3
; 19 years old
; 3rd July '91
; NP- BS Yr 3
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date: Wednesday, January 07, 2009 met dearest in the morning and went sch tgt
talked things out and i m glad that dearest was her usual her today bus 75 came dam late which caused us to be late got back DSS paper; was rather satisfied with my results and the project my grp did very well surprising we got A cos the teacher have always looked down on my grp always tackling us which makes me super afraid b4 the presentation ): & he told us ''surprising, ur grp did quite well though it is last min work'' LOL! had bmgt presenation afterwhich quite a breeze cos the teacher was super nice no bmgt tutorial next wed means i can go home at 11 next week! cos teacher finished controlling tutorial today after class, went lunch with clique afterwhich qaiser went home, marcus did project we went out of sch to take videos we really ''shou zhu dai tu'' sia! but in the end the video also cant open waste time, waste energy only! ): did blaw for close to 3 hrs and we are almost done! perseverance really pays off afterwhich went to shoot with ade match today was alrights overall i feel the team did alrights i expected the outcome i feel i did alrights for the first quarter not 100% accuracy but still acceptable to myself but the subsequent quarters, things got worst i had 3 contacts today; i missed quite a couple of shoots though i maybe abit better than rp's match but it is still not what i want the GD knocked onto my head real hard close to the end of the 1st quarter my vision got blurred for a few secs the moment i came out i took pandaol cos the pain is killing me ): BH starting shouting during the last quarter and i really cannot tahan cos i m really confused what she is shouting about i thought real hard but i still dun get it till when the last whistle was blown, she called me aside to explain to me i think perhaps she can c my black and confused face i can say i m super stressed the whole match even jeremy and stella say so every pass i took, every shot i took i was super afraid i would make mistake everytime i shoot, i was super afraid if i use the correct strength & if i m able to shoot it in BH told me this '' it is a physcology barrier that i need to overcome it is not that my shooting are not accurate, it is just that i dun have the confidence everytime when the defender jumped when i shoot, i will tend to release the ball super light'' ever since i missed the penalty shot from the last polite game with sp which leads np to draw with them everytime when i shoot, i will be super afraid and especially when there is penalty shot and worst is when the final whistle is blown the image of me missing the last penalty shot always appear on my mind it is really a xin li zhang ai for me to overcome once i m able to overcome the problem, i will then be a better player i need to overcome this, i should nt let this little setback affect me i still have a long wat to go; be it for np or be it for extremes more matches are coming up and i should not always let myself leave the court with any regrets anymore the feeling is really horrible u all dun know how awful i felt everytime i dun met my own expectations stella and jeremy were right, so what if we lose? it is an experience gained no one wins forever having high expectations makes one feel even worst when they did not met it failure is the stepping stone to success i m super thankful to my peeps today weiling,jeremy,stella,seb,jiazhen for coming down jeremy and stella were super afraid i will fall down when i walk they macham treat me like elderly like tat helping me when i walk, carrying my bag for me helping me to bring the balls back to the club house accompanying me walk back to the club house cos i told them i m super afraid to walk back to the bus stop alone they consoled me when i could not hold back my tears anymore they cheered me up and did not reprimand though it was already late they accompained me to wait for 75 even when they have other buses home thanks sebastian for accompanying me for dinner and sending me home some of my teamates notice my change after the match i did not speak much after the match cos i m super depressed already yvonne,panda,alicia, jasmin; thanks for cheering me up and ur encouragements weiling; thanks for waiting for hours b4 my match starts & ur encouragements zhizhong, jiahao, monster, cheryl, ball, karthi; thanks for ecouraging (: & for ur gd luck messages final ivp match on friday 820pm at the blue track i m really afraid that scene will appear again ): gosh~ thinking of that gives me nightmare BH's expectations will definately be very high and if i dun perform well on fri i shall get prepared to get scolding |
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